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2007-10-02T13:12:00.000-07:00

Today is like 9:15 PM and I'm weary. Hmm, what I did today was just like "boring". Hmm, anything else unusual for today is that... I found Leo's old pictures. *devil's grin* XD

I found out that he's so damn sexy. Eh, LOL! Joking. XD

There goes his first pic. Hmm, and then again, he looks so damn old in this one. O_o
Huwahahaha! Nice long hair huh. Hmm, baaah. For some reason, I noticed that I just wrote something in this blog because my friend reminded me to do so. :D She's Ate Rose. :D We've been talking 'bout blogs and then online games. x) Now, back from where I've been. I just wanted to showcase his old pictures anyway. Featuring him and his stupidness, Leo. :D *huhahahaha*

So, how's that for a hobby tonight? x)

Spring

2007-09-21T13:42:00.000-07:00

we are here~
we will be here~
the slow time is~
flowing in this room~
the spring days glitter~
together with the smiles~
as un unending chain of happiness~
believe strongly~
that you have obtained that awaited day~
hey, the days are wonderful~
lovingly embrace your feelings~
I won't say goodbye~
because forever the days will be unchanged.. ~
surely forever..~

Angel and Buffy the Vampire Slayer

2007-08-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

Quotes from Angel( A Vampire Series )(1999 - 2004) .

Spinoff of TV's Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Created by Joss Whedon and David Greenwalt.
Starring David Boreanaz, Alexis Denisof, Charisma Carpenter, J. August Richards, Andy Hallett, Amy Acker, and James Marsters.

Angel: And that wins out every time with you. You know, the human race has evolved, Spike!
Spike: Oh, into a bunch of namby-pamby, self-analyzing wankers who could never hope to...
Angel: We're bigger. We're smarter. Plus, there's a thing called teamwork, not to mention the superstitious terror of your pure aggressors.

Angel: We're - I'm from Wolfram and Hart.
Spike: I'm his date.

Buffy: I felt your heart beat.

Spike: I was once a bad-assed vampire. But love and a pesky curse de-fanged me and now im just a big, fluffy puppy with bad teeth.

Cordelia: Well, I better get mingling. I really should be talking to people that are somebody. But it was fun!
Angel: It's nice that she's grown as a person.

Doyle: See, you need to chat people up a bit more casual like, you know? "Hi, what's your name? How's life treating you? What's that you say? Minions from hell getting you down?"

Kate: You're telling me you're an investigator?Angel: More or less.
Kate: Where's your license?
Angel: That's the less part.

Angel: I know you guys have been working hard and cooped up inside a lot. And, uh, to show my appreciation, I was thinking, the night being you know, young and all... that the three of us could, well, should maybe ... go out. You know... for fun.
Cordelia: Or.... we can... go home!
Doyle: And you can sit in the dark alone.
Angel: God yes. Thank you.

Doyle:All I'm saying is, if you and I ever hope to take that cruise to the Bahamas together, we're going to need a lot more clients with means.
Cordelia: And an alternate reality in which you're Matthew McConaughey.

Angel: I don't know about you, but I had a nice day. You know, except for the bulk of it where I was nearly tortured to death.

Kate: Go to hell.
Angel: Been there, done that.

Wuhahaha, those were my favorite tag lines when I was an avid fan of the series Angel. I had fun watching them spoof out like that. LOL!

Hey, Bartender ~

2007-08-24T13:27:00.000-07:00

I don’t mind leaving my order up to you, silent one.

Defeated in love, set upon at work, now’s not the time for me to be crying.

Your long fingers I glimpse over the counter are beautiful.

I wonder how will you use your fingers tonight to get me drunk.

Don’t pretend, don’t hide, let my clairvoyance reveal everything about you.

You’re strong, but you carry a side that is about to break, don’t you?

How about a stimulating flavor that will set you aflame more than ever?

The awe that satisfies you wells up in my blushing skin…

Don’t…

Tonight, I’m not in the mood

Tonight, I can’t turn back…

I Wish I Could Turn Back Time

2007-08-17T00:32:00.000-07:00

Ah, it's two days after my birthday and it doesn't feel good at all. Someone's gone. Wa-a-aaaiiit a minute? Damn, outta my system, outta my flex, outta my mind... things are probably going to be in a lie-low status for now. I must think of a plan for changing this mood into something good. I might concentrate on this one.

Ah, this! xD

AMW's FIRST EVENT

Welcome Audistas, mapa stiffy ka man or mamaw, welcome ~! At kung mahilig kang magpatawa, I am here to invite you to participate in September's event called AMW's Comedian Of The Month. In this event, everyone who will participate is free to express themselves through fashion and comedy. There will be prizes, of course. We will give you certain questions to answer. I reassure you that the questions won't be that tough. (And please reassure us na magaling kayo magpatawa at magdala ng mga characters ninyo. HAHA!)

Mechanics:

-l>Post 1 Funny character pose d2 sa thread (Edited man or hindi, please resize it to 375 x 330)

--l>Write a funny quote. (One lang, emphasizing the word "a") (you can do a dialogue by writing it under your picture or in a balloon inside the picture)

---l>It will be held in the second or third week of September (just always check the thread for further announcement)Where to be held: Channel 15Room title: "Patawa Sessions"

----l>Why is there a need for a screenshot? We needed a screenshot to see who has the funniest costume.

-----l>We will select 6 members of the club for the final event (question and answer portion)

------l> Prizes at stake: To be decided.

BTW:here is the proper format in sending your entries

IGN:

screenshot:

Wadya waiting for? Sali na ~

Dangerous Material: Lead

2007-08-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

Lead is a metal that occurs naturally in
the earth's crust. People spread it in
many ways. Lead used to be in paint and
gasoline. Lead can still be found in
contaminated soil, household dust,
drinking water, lead-glazed pottery and
some metal jewelry.

Breathing air, drinking water, eating
food or swallowing or touching dirt that
contains lead can cause many health
problems. In adults, lead can increase
blood pressure and cause infertility,
nerve disorders and muscle and joint
pain. It can also make you irritable and
affect your ability to concentrate and
remember.

Lead is especially dangerous for
children. A child who swallows large
amounts of lead may develop anemia,
severe stomachache, muscle weakness and
brain damage. Even low levels of lead
are linked to LOWER IQ SCORES!!!!

Lead is bluish white when freshly cut
but tarnishes to dull gray when exposed
to air. Lead is used in building
construction, lead-acid batteries,
bullets and shot, and is part of solder,
pewter, and fusible alloys.

Lead is a poisonous metal that can
damage nervous connections (especially
in young children) and cause blood and
brain disorders. Long term exposure to
lead or its salts (especially soluble
salts or the strong oxidant PbO2) can
cause nephropathy, and colic-like
abdominal pains.
MAKE UP's and Cellphones HAS LEAD.. aLso T,V's P.C's ETC..

So, is there a way to prevent this stuff? :D

Life's Tid-Bits

2007-07-31T14:30:00.000-07:00

Currently Playing - Aha by Ivy
[~One damn hot song]

Facts That Hurt

- There’s a rapid change of weather right now. If it won’t be discussed, what’s the future of the world by just waiting? WHEN WILL WE ACT? WHEN WILL WE REACT?

Know that:

• the scientific community has been investigating the link between CO2 and global warming for more than 175 years? Scientists are born skeptics, and by no means accepted the theory as fact the first time it was proposed.

• The most recent scientific report from the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC) also notes with concern that the ocean is acidifying because of increased absorption of atmospheric CO2, and thus posing a threat for shell-forming species, which are an essential part of the marine food web. Projected increases in carbon dioxide levels will cause further acidification of the ocean. (IPCC, 2007)

• The tropical animals (birds) are finding its way to Canada and more soon in the North. This is due to the prior climate change.

• Global warming doubles the number of hurricanes.

• 5 million children die per year due to environmental hazards (including polluted air or water, or exposure to chemicals.)

• Rising ozone levels stunt plant growth.

• Melting glaciers raise sea level more than polar ice sheets.

•July 15, 2007
STOCKHOLM (AFP) - British adventurer and swimmer Lewis Gordon Pugh last Sunday became the first person to swim in the icy waters of the North Pole, to raise awareness of how global warming is effecting the polar ice cap.

• Global warming causes gray whales to lose weight.

• Rising sea levels pose threat to rice.

• Polar bears are now drowning.

and more. Life is now threatened. Are we just going to wait for a blank future? Again, I'm asking you, when are you going to act?

l'équilibre

2007-07-31T06:55:00.000-07:00

All truly wise thoughts have been thought already, thousands of times; but to make them truly ours, we must think them over again honestly, till they take firm root in our personal experience.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Life is a brief interpretation of experience. It is composed of our very own ups and downs that we take part in whichever way we are taking it. Upon thinking further, we take note of almost all the various experiences that we are experiencing. We manage to think and learn about it, but the best part is that we share it and imply it to our lives and to others. It is either an adventure worth taking or nothing at all. It is the greatest blessing which is within our reach; though we fall foul on the very thing we search for, without ever finding it.

Definitely, there comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular; and that he must take it because his conscience tells him that it is right. Have you ever questioned yourself about that? What if the world only thinks that the best way to live life is only to experience the best out of it, and not experiencing the worst? What a splendid world it would be. Now we think again, is it really that splendid that we only feel happiness and that there is no space for any other emotion more than that? Then if it is, you’ll probably need a slap on your face. You deserve it. You’re dreaming. You are coward; very coward to face the truth. You lie in an indefinite measure of boredom. Somehow, if you’ll think further, you’ll realize that you need pain, suffering, loneliness, etc. to complete life. It only shows that you also need these negative surfaces, and not completely rely on positive emotions to learn something out of nothing. This is reality; it never changes. It might be harsh, a very hard thing to comply to, but it is really worth your effort to go and gain it. It helps us to understand and become a more mature person. Remember that when one door closes, another one opens. But often we look so long so regretfully upon the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us. Somehow, if you’ll base it through the quirk of fate, it will only lead you to one road: the realization of REALITY.

Waitin'

2007-07-29T11:03:00.000-07:00

In my eyes were the tears I wept for you
In my eyes were the sorrowful events that I kept for so long
It tore my heart
It tore my soul
It tore me whole

In my hands were the promises we promised to keep
In my hands was the future that always lied deep
It gave me a moment of sorrow
It gave me a moment of regret
It gave me a moment of silence

Where were those promises?
How were they broken?
Where was the future?
Did it lie deep down the earth?
Where are you now, now that I'm searching for an answer?

I'll still sit here waiting
I'll always stick on to my stand
I would force myself to my limits
'til one day you'll realize
How important you were to me

Se7en On The Move

2007-07-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

*pictures taken from www.hello7.com

Chae Yeon

2007-07-28T17:31:00.000-07:00

Everyone's talking about her. Her smile, her moves, her song. She's just like a fairytale princess come true. Halt! There's more in store for her! (AND I'M HER BIGGEST FAN! lol~ ._.)

Lee Chae Yeon (also known as Jinny Lee)

Born : December 10, 1978

Nationality : Korean

Her Career:

She returned to Korea with her first official album It’s My Time under her new stage name, Chae Yeon. Debuting late in 2003, nobody expected her to be successful as she is now. Initially, she was simply viewed as yet another "sexy concept" singer, as many female singers were at that time. However, unlike many others, she had a fairly successful debut. She proved to be a great dancer, and she showed off her vocals in her ballad songs and live performances.

Her title song (Dangerous Presentation) did well, but her real success came when her 2nd album released late in 2004. Two Of Us, the lead single, pushed her to #1 on many music charts in the spring of 2005.

Chae Yeon has managed to maintain her popularity by continually participating in variety shows, such as SBS's X-Man and Love Letter, where she portrays both cute and sexy images. Her appearances on these variety shows allowed her to display her bubbly and positive personality. She ended her official schedule with her last X-Man episode on September 25, in order to concentrate on recording her fourth album.

Although briefly hospitalised due to exhaustion, she was able to prepare for her comeback, which was at the end of March. Her lead single from her fourth album was "My Love", which was a Latin-tinged dance song. Although extensively performed, with a remix promoted from May onwards, the album failed to sell well, selling only 10,387 copies to date.

In addition to promoting her album, Chae Yeon has also joined the cast of Hi-Five, part of KBS's Happy Sunday line-up. On the reality-variety show, which also stars Hyun Young, the stars attempt to succeed in various tasks, including starring in a musical, becoming flight attendants, and performing action movie stunts.

*Source: Wikipedia.com

Can Animals Do the Human Language?

2007-07-28T16:56:00.001-07:00

Pretty funny for animals to act that way. HAHAHA!

And how they do things...

what cats do...

and the last video...

WARNING : NOT FOR PEOPLE 13 BELOW.

* I HOPE YOU HAD FUN*

Bi Rain and Se7en Fever

2007-07-28T13:06:00.000-07:00

WOOOT ~! Yeah, blame me for occupying this page with their heavenly pictures and songs. >,<

Rain and Se7en.. you're both a one-hell combination of a beautiful beast. You've heard it, a beast!

Uhhh... *blinks again* Rain you really look like an exotic ---. HAHAHA! Pfft!

Misc:

Bad Guy
Released: May 13, 2002

How to Avoid the Sun
Released: October 16, 2003

It's RAINing
Released: October 8, 2004

Eternal Rain

Singles: "Sad Tango", "Free Way", "Move On"

Rain's World
Released: October 13, 2006

Well, mistah Se7en, you knock me off my socks. Hear that? SOCKS! x) I love your songs as well as I've loved Rain's but you really made it up to me. I can rate you equal. I give Rain 10 and you 10.1? Niahaha! x) No suprise, I like your songs. I love Rain's choreography. To my suprise, I've been nagging all day thinking 'bout your new singles. I can't wait. HAHA pfft ~ I want to have one. ;~;

Misc:

Korean Albums
Volume 1 Just Listen (2003.03.08)
Volume 2 Must Listen (2004.07.07)
Volume 3 24/SE7EN (2006.03.08)
Volume 4 Se7olution (2006.11.01)

Korean Singles
Crazy - (2004.12.01) - 1st Commercial Korean digital single
747 - (2007.6.29) - digital single

Japanese Albums
First SE7EN (2006.03.08)

Japanese Singles
Hikari (2005.02.23)
Style (2005.05.18)
Start Line / Forever (double A-side single) (2005.10.19 )
I Wanna... (2006.09.13) #10 Oricon Weekly Chart (First week sales: 9,265)
Aitai (2007.03.28) #10 Oricon Daily Chart, #17 Oricon Weekly Chart (First week sales: 6,949)
Ari no Mama(2007.07.04) #5 Oricon Daily Chart, #11 Oricon Weekly Chart (First week sales: 10,058)

Oh well, this is what I do when I don't come up into anything GOOD for me to write. HAHA pfft. I just got bored anyhow and flipped into the web. I am lucky anyhow to find these pictures. I am a FAN. I repeat! FAN! XD Pamaypay in Filipino. LOL ! pfft ~

Three Months

2007-07-28T10:58:00.000-07:00

It's been three months now since we've been together, dear friend. I am very lucky to have you in my life. It's like butterflies around spring and snow around winter since our friendship started to take the eyes of everyone. Did they notice the relationship building between us? Haha, it's like they asked me 'bout us. I say we are just friends. They gossip about something you and I would exactly guess. But lo, it's not what they think it is. You're just a special friend to me, and so I am to you. Nothing more and nothing less. I enjoy your company as well as you do to mine. We share everything, starting from those tiny events to those big ones. I hope we will last long. It's hard to find such a friend like you. A friend's like a gift. It's either that you throw it or you'll keep it away from you. It's like diamonds from stones. It's like a verse from a field of sentences. And you know what, I'll keep my faith standing to you. I love you damn friend. HAHA!

This song's for you. =) You know who you are. ^^~

Sad Tango

2007-07-27T05:12:00.000-07:00

What I got to do to make you mine?
What should I be giving myself to find?
Any clue that you might’ve left behind
Baby please give me a sign
I can never walk away like this
Giving up on you

And it’s true
It’s the only one thing that I’m sure
Only one thing that is so pure
Pure enough my heart can cure
There’s so much I can endure
Baby can you please come back to me
To my arms, please finding ways to get you back
Everyday I’m asking to myself
What’s the reason that you turned your back to me?
How am I supposed to live?
Searching’ places you might be
Anywhere I’ll go if I can meet
You and tell you how I need you here with me
I can’t live without your love

Why can’t I just give up and let go?
When it’s over and I know
Everywhere I look for high and low
Couldn’t find you and it shows that you don’t want me to come to you
Come to you again

So I tried
Tried to live my life without you here
But what I run into is more fear
Can you hear my words, they’re so sincere
That I really need you near
Baby why can’t you see this is real?
Please come back, baby

It’s too late to say these words of redemption
I should’ve known better
If I can turn back the clock, I’ll do anything and everything
All I need is just one more chance, let me prove my love to you
Let me show you, let me tell you how much I miss you
You’re all that I need girl

*Amen to Rain* Yipee~ x) He rocks. I love this version. x) Anyhow, I gotta sleep. pfft ~

Tattoo [English Version]

2007-07-27T04:58:00.000-07:00

These days I feel it all, every corner of my mind
Weekends at the mall, Sunday morning calls
Walking through the park, happily as we’d go then
Now I swore we had the nicest times so I
Knew you were the one, you had to be the one
Hoping you and I, would never ever see wrong

Slowly you were hard to see, who wouldn’t think I'd worry
You leaving before my eyes
I’m telling you now I cannot lie

No matter how I try, oh~
These memories won’t let go
Inside of me, my sorrow and I cannot pretend
It's killing me, you know
Seems like I never find that
Time for moving on
Lord knows I’m only human, can’t help what I’m doing
Trying to get by, these memories of my own

So unbelievably, where this can’t be happening
We shared too much of us, and love I thought it was
A shame of silly me, for having such a heart of... care trust and harmony
That’s what I’m living for
I see no other road, that’s what I’ve been told
Times I’m feeling now, it wasn’t meant to be, no

Slowly and possibly, I can
Right now who am I joking
You leaving before my eyes
I’m telling you I cannot, cannot lie

Well now I tell myself I can do it
It won't be easy but I'll get through it
Just look ahead and put the past behind for me
And believe, though my heart's been broken
Everything's gonna be alright

I know I can get by, these memories of my own

Munshin [ Tattoo ]

2007-07-27T04:36:00.000-07:00

Ijeneun neoreul miwohaneun mam boda dareun saram gyeoteseo neoreul mos ijgo Salagalkkabwa geuge deo duryeowo

Neol mileonaessdeon neol biwonaessdeon himdeun shiganeul hemeida jichyeo

Geu oraen shigani nugureul wihan geonji

Wae tteonaya haesseul kka dashi gaseumi me-eowa

Neon machi munshincheoreom nae ane bunshincheoreom jiuryeogo aereul sseodo

Jiul su eobsneungeol jal algo issneun geol

Ijeneun neoreul miwohaneun mam boda dareun saram gyeoteseo neoreul mos ijgo Salagalkkabwa geuge deo duryeowo

Eonjenga hanbeoneun majuchil su issgessji

Geuttaen useumyeo malhago shipeo jal jinaenyago naneun bappassdago

Hajiman maeumppunya jashini eobseo

Niga miwoseo moki me-eoseo

Nado moreuge nunmul eul boimyeon

Neon useo jugessni nugureul wihangeonji

Wae tteonaya haesseul kka dashi gaseumi meyeowa

Neon machi munshincheoreom nae ane bunshincheoreom jiuryeogo aereul sseodo

Jiul su eobsneungeol jal algo issneun geol

Ijeneun neoreul miwohaneun mam boda dareun saram gyeoteseo neoreul mos ijgo Salagalkkabwa geuge deo duryeowo

Naboda deo haengbokhae jul rae neol deo miwohal su issge

Nareul jeongmal saranghaessdamyeon neoyeokshi gakkeumsshik jinan nae saeng-gake hansum swieodo gwaenchanha

Sewoli heulreo gado nunmuleul heulryeo bwado ije waseo huhoehaedo

Soyongi eobsneun geol imi neujeossneun geol

Ijeneun neoreul saranghaneun mam boda neoui saram gyeoteseo nareul moshijgo Salagalkkabwa geuge deo duryeowo nado moreuge geuge deo duryeowo

You know I know I love you
Se7en. :)

Common Distress - a dedication for my uncle. I HATE him.

2007-07-23T06:41:00.000-07:00

Heartless
Merciless
Reckless
Vain

Those words describe the worst friend I’ve encountered

Anger
Frustration
Depression
Wretched

The feelings that rushed to me when I first saw his face

Sorrowful
Broken
Bruised
Upset

Are the feelings that surround every person that meets him

Unapproachable
Ill-minded
Typical
Unforgivable

Things that he did

Totally unforgivable
Totally unyielding wrath.

2:38:59 A.M. in the morning

2007-07-11T12:10:00.000-07:00

2:38:59 A.M. in the morning.

I got a message from Jaymee via text message to Yahoo! Messenger.

" i wr0te ur name in d skies ab0ve

but d wind blew it away..

i wr0te ur name in d sand,

d tide washed it away..

s0 i juz wr0te ur name evrywer..

hinuli aq ng pulis vandalism daw! ^^ "

I laughed hard at that one but it knocked off my feet. Uyy, bongga. He texted me that early in the morning. How did he know that I was still browsing the web? Coincidence? Lucky guess? Maybe. Somehow, that man never ceases to make me laugh everyday.

Well, we chat almost everyday. We have our share of laughters and craziness. Funny him. *niao* x)

In Ebb And Flow

2007-07-08T10:38:00.001-07:00

In Ebb and Flow
~Evespring

Racing -

The tune of the mystified equilibrium unfolds my world
Opened my senses, filled the tip of my soul
Guaranteed an immobility only I can behold
And that on every tongue I can make things untold

Halt -

I am the dark and the light
The enigmatic aroma of the blue waters
The rhythm that bounces back from the surreal and real
The figure that touches you whole and heal

Force -

Tension – a lifetime reassurance of shame
The builder of anxiety, of madness, of frustration
The music of the damned, the poem of the imp
I am making the world turn like ink

Deception -

Schizophrenia of the menace
The boldness of the body within
Feelings of wrath, of corruption, of heat
A tragedy that I can only keep

Prejudice -

In your eyes, I see myself afloat
Breathing with sheer capacity, of imbalance and balance
Of unity and perfection – the anguish indestructible
Only a single dot, the monochrome of rejection

I am Darker than Black

2007-07-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

Darker Than Black : A tribute to the unjust

Such as the world that reckons the page of my history
The life I carried for years in the hands of my solemnity came to dawn
And by a time, if I were to redecide the fate of the many that carried my hand
I will rule justly, forever joy and merriment
Yet all I can do is wait and process until light shines back to the doors of a new reality

As I was forced to come up a bright answer in the call of serene loneliness

I had my counter fear: to lose what I have now and never go back again
Counting on my pride and innocence, indulgence corrupted my brain
I soon became weary, unjust and volatile in transacting the rights of the many
But even though they knew that the things that I’ve done was not right, they still hanged on to me

I started to remember the apprehensive times where I availed real peace
Where the people that came through my doors were my friends
Where those valor and justly decisions were my point of views and priority
Where I was a true knight, a deserving citizen that served all
Where everything seems only like a flicker of my imagination came to life

Imagination that seemed so real, so close to grab and hold on
So perfectly right, a treasure that must be kept and be secretly hidden
but then so I knew that I had my limitation, a frightful moment that escaped my tongue
the very same tongue that also led me to unhappiness, to recklessness
The recklessness that slowly led me to death

I am supposed to be the knight that will carry my brother's cross

I am supposed to be the knight that will lead my people to a blissful legacy

I am supposed to be the prime healer, the prime minister of the fields
Yet to what I am destined, I can not change

Facing the truth, as viewed from the mirror of my domination, I knew:

I am darker than black, and I led my world into an end; the apocalypse.

Does this count for this day?

2007-07-01T04:14:00.000-07:00

Here I go, scream my
lungs out and try to get to you
You are my ONLY
ONE... - Yellowcard

Just 15 minutes ago, as I opened my Yahoo Messenger to check out what's happening over the chat roll. I found out that : Karen's still stuck on her past love life; Marfrey and Mei busy; and best friend Jessie made a bull**** out of me. Well, hell yes, he ruined my day. That minute that I was supposed to write something over, he PMed me saying " hi baby.. ," and there goes the SHOCK of the YEAR event. I was dumbstruck about the way he flirted some stuffs out. Like I was .. " hello, is that my best friend saying those words ayt me again? "

What's lacking is the soundtrack "I'm A Flirt" by R. Kelly and that'll complete the scene of our conversation. Lmao! x3

Here's some example of his flirtness. :D

Kazuki Deraper: hi baby

Lee: O_O

Lee: sino baby mo

Kazuki Deraper: kaw?

Kazuki Deraper: db tau

Kazuki Deraper: kainiz ka ha

Lee: Flirt >:)

Kazuki Deraper: wtf

Lee: niahahaha

Kazuki Deraper: hay

And the last sentence goes like this : "You never asked for me, nor did I agree to go with you." That's what I said. Funny how it seems to be that way, because I never conversed with him about that. And he never asked for me too. PLUS, he's my best friend. Just like that. Pisses me off, but I had my laugh at the end.

Adrift

2007-06-27T11:37:00.000-07:00

Adrift

A garrulous wind blew over me
As I was swaying across the moonlit floor
Dancing recklessly, doubtless in slow motion
Breathing prudently, motionless after

I feel the inner passion and grace within me
Giving me the lust to engulf the mockery of the night
Pacing to and fro, giving light recurring motions to my feet
Finding it cold but silver in tone

I was weary after the shift
Strange illusions triggered my mind
The next thing I knew I was missing something
And behold it was a bizarre angle

As I softly lay down the nearest seat
Murmurs of the cold wind engages me
Tears now go down to my cheeks
And that night, nobody knew that the very same flame that I started came to an end

The flame that made me whole all these years
Its essence that gives me the will to move on
But now it is gone and forever be gone
And it was a secret only one person knew…

Yes I know, that the person was YOU.

Tangled

2007-06-26T04:38:00.000-07:00

Tangled

"Baby, it's 3 a.m. I must be lonely... well, I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes... - "3 a.m.," Matchbox 20

I want it all:

Your blood of hot chili peppers

Surging under sunburnt skin,

You sliding into me with the undulating roll

Made by the grinding hips of a thundering samba rhythm;

Your wild waterfall of jet curls

Washing over my white sand beach of skin,

Flowing ever downward, laving me

In a rain of soft, dark sensation

And backwashing warm, salty waves

Of seawater through my fingers.

Your mouth of live coals

Burning off the cold front blowing in

From the polar ice of my blue lips,

Igniting bushfires in the savannas of my body,

Kindling my driftwood eyes

To leaping points of red flame

And singeing the scrolled parchment of my soul;

Your scent of pine forests and musk,

The cedarwood incense of your man-smell

Curling up like smoke in the named temple of my bones,

Anointing the epicenter of these arms and legs

Where we commune in the most sacred of rites;

Your long craftsman's hands

Fashioning me in a filigree of

Gold tracery on a platinum core

And polishing away the years as if they had

Never passed through his body, this space,

As if they never were;

The long, muscled pillars of your legs,

Strong and ageless redwoods, sliding, supple,

Over and between mine and through the sweat beneath us

Until, torso to torso, we skydance

Into the pantheon of lovers-turned-deities

Where we will set fire to galaxies

With the blue-flame points of our fingertips

And melt comets in our palms;

The feline glow of your eyes

Watching mine in the dark, pulling away the sheets

By some arcane telekinesis and telexing

Your volcanic thoughts of me.

Yes, I want it all.

And once we've traveled

Past the climaxes of our bodies,

I want-most of all-

The pure, cool spring of your serenity

To slow my heartbeat's sprinting pace

And restore to me

All the dreams that withered

In your absence.

Dawn comes and I want to hold you till

I have it all, have what we came for.

Let the alarm clock ring until it is hoarse

Or smash into gazillion shattered shards

Of dead time frozen in colored plastic.

Let the world hang

And let me have it all.

What's Behind "I Miss You" ? - grabbed from friendster :)

2007-06-20T05:42:00.000-07:00

> Girl facts:

>> When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile

>> When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand

>> When she wants a hug, she will just stand there

>> When you break a girls heart, she still feels it even when you see each other 3 years later [my opinion? hmm, let's say : I miss the OLD you]

>> When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind

>> When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply

>> When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around

>> When a girl answers ["I'm fine"] after a few seconds, she is not at all fine [*baii, proven and tested!]

>> When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games

>> When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever

>> When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future

>> When a girl says "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that

>> When a girl is mean to you after a break-up, she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever

>>> Guy Facts:

>> When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you [ Opinion: I never thought it like this WAY ]

>> When a guy is quiet, he's listening to you... [ Wooot? O.o ]

>> When a guy is not arguing, he realizes that he's wrong [ *proven and tested xD ]

>> When a guy says "I'm fine" after a few minutes, he means it [ Opinion: Uhm, let's say I've got some experience on this stuff... ]

>> When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do

>> When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world

>> When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love [ It doesn't mean that EVEN if he doesn't do those things, he isn't in love. ]

>> When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it [ Not men are all GOOD ]

>> When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you 'til your done

>> When a guy says, "I miss you," he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else [ Ows? Atik? XD Is that a joke or something? ]

Comment:

I'ts a sweet thing to realize those things IF they come through our lives. Many of us wishes the same. It's just that you can't determine things that way all the time. It only depends on the situation, place, time, or the RIGHT moment. Most of us (girls) fantasize those things coming true, wishing every word in written in this document comes to life. In my opinion, most of them aren't true, while others are true. Proof : I've been through them. Well, what's important is that knowing it will just come your way when you are into a valued relationship. Of course, that's between you and your special someone in life.

*Buti napadaan ako sa friendster, kung hindi wala rin akong nagawa sa internet time...* HAHA!

Devotion and Desire

2007-06-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

Devotion and Desire

Trying to create something that's not there

A spark I saw as a bomb is just a means to an end

And I was just so happy to be out of my shell again, don't think that I really cared for who or what

So for now I'll just have to keep it shut

If you're not ready, you're not ready

Please stop acting like you are

How could I know that everything you say are lies about devotion and desire?

And I know the spark inside your eyes was just the match I used to set myself on fire

My mouth's shooting blanks

Situation's unbearable, I've gotten vulnerable

Now anyone is free to waltz right in

My temple's been invaded and there's nobody guarding it

All over this lonely life, but what's so wrong with being all alone?

Alone's the only way I've ever known

I'm pleading cause this kills and it's still bleeding

My darling I'm taking my life back to start healing

Memory - Sugarcult

2007-06-12T06:40:00.000-07:00

Photo grabbed from Tahmi. I'm her fan! Yeah! XD

This may never start.

We could fall apart.

And I'd be your memory.

Lost your sense of fear.

Feelings insincere.

Can I be your memory?

The hardest part of growing up is where you collect memories out of joy, pain, and uncertainty. Sometimes, people find it really hard to recall those treasures that lay in their hands. Damn, this song reminds me of everything. Perhaps it was only a dream and I don't have the time to recognize it all except the most important part of it. Like I'm collecting diamonds out of stones. I thank God for making those memories; they're the best of what I can ever imagine. PLUS - Mix the misfortunes, pain and suffering, joy, anger and all, equals a very good and colorful memory. You'll have, in sometime, reminisce those things that you had learned from people, the "how" you took your fall and helped yourself to reach the top again. Those things will really make you a "somebody" out of a nobody. It'll make you laugh sometime and realize how things really get to change in due time. And then you'll say : what a sore loser I was before, and what I am right now is thanks to those memories I've built up, I've grown to a more reliable person. Hey, I just remembered something, last night, my dad and my mom got home from work about 16 minutes before 1 am - and I was so damn worried with them and I was thinking about what happened to them. I'm not used to them going home past 12 midnight, so I was in panic while I was lying in bed. The moment they came, I was like this : "What time is it now? You're supposed to go home by 7 pm right? Geez, what took you so long?" I had the best laugh of my life when I realized that I was scolding my parents for going home late. Ahahaha! Damn that night! Then I got myself fixed, went to my room and tried to think about what I said to them. I just realized that "I cared" although I was stubborn and selfish with them.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted

Just like I imagine

I could never feel this way

So get back, back, back to the disaster

My heart's beating faster

Holding on to feel the same

Feels good to express out what you feel huh? Yeah, life's a bit twisted right now and I gotta spread some flat corners and talk. I've learned a lesson that I can keep for a lifetime. That is :

"Memories are built up for people to learn, for people to remember, and for people to move away from trouble. Even though how many times a person falls down, as long as that person remembers, life's going to be a bit easier."

This may never start.

Tearing out my heart.

I'd be your memory.

Lost your sense of fear.(I'd be your memory)

Feelings disappear.

Can I be your memory?

and the music starts to fade...

just for tonight.. tonight :)

Boring Day - June 1, 2007

2007-06-01T05:18:00.000-07:00

So bored, damn it. Pork chop and all features that will suit this boring atmosphere will surely be welcomed. Help! Damn! *sobs* I'm thinking about a topic that will give me the spark to endure this boring day. Oh, bingo! Here's my saviour!

The Healthy Life : 12 Ways in Avoiding Stress

• Exercise. Keep yourself up. Keep a healty
life.

• Eat the real stuff. Does burgers and fast food serve your proper diet?
Uhuh, bingo you say, it doesn't. It's not necessary for a person to eat burgers.
True, it makes your "temporary diet" okay, but will it fuel you for the whole
day of work? Nah. Stick to HEALTHY MEALS.

• Notice. Try not to let the stress overtake you. Recognize the
situations that cause the stress and notice them coming your way. You have a
better shot at fending off the full effects of the stress when you can
anticipate it.

• Get it off your chest. Talk to a friend or partner about the stress.
Sometimes just getting it off your chest can help unload some of the
burden.

• Keep your sense of humor. If you do have the chance to talk about it,
try to see the irony and humor in the wacky bits. I think someone is dead in the
water once they lose their sense of humor.

• Stay grateful. Life's a bit hard to look at to but there are times
that you will never imagine that one day, it will make your life great. Like in
an instance, a friend notices you having some deep trauma/problem over something
then he/she will say : "Hey buddy what's your problem there, can I talk to you?"
Never put your head out of the line. I'm sure someone cares for you.

• Ask, "What's the hurry?" Have some fun. We're always so busy going somewhere, we
miss just enjoying the moment. If an opportunity comes your way to do something
fun, take it.

• Take a deep breath. When you feel the stress getting to you, take a
moment. Get away, even if it's just for an hour, to be with yourself and your
thoughts. Some people like to take a walk, meditate, lock themselves away in a
beautiful bath, or go to church. Find the peace and the silence.

• Keep it simple. Simplify things that will make your work easier. Find
ways to provide yourself comfort while making uneasy stuffs.

• Sleep. If you're relaxed, you have a better shot at handling
things. Not to mention, you may not stress out as easily if you have a chance to
recover at night.

• Listening to music. Stress can be relieved through listening
your favorite genre of music. It helps you to relax yourself, plus, it pleases
you.

• Drink water. Hydrate with water. Help you entire system function
better just by drinking enough water. Oh, and by the way, if you don't think
that weight loss and proper hydration have a relationship, think again. Shift
the paradigm on its side -- don't think about exercise and nutritional eating
just as something you have to suffer through to get into those jeans. Instead,
think of them as armor that will protect you in this crazy world, with all of
the bazillion details you deal with every day.

What If -

2007-06-01T03:53:00.000-07:00

♠ What If - Babyface

I ran into a friend of yours the other day
And I asked her how you've been
She said my girl is fine; just bought a house, got a job, real good man
I told her I was glad for you; that's wonderful
But does she ever ask `bout me?
She said she's happy with her life right now
Let her go, let her be
And I told myself I would, but something in my heart just would not let you go
I just wanna know

[Chorus:]
What if we were wrong about each other?
What if you were really made for me?
What if we was `sposed to be together?
Would that not mean anything?
What if that was `sposed to be my house that you go home to every day?
How can you be sure that things are better?
If you can't be sure your heart aint still here with me
Still wanting me

Your friend asked me if there was someone special in my life that I was seeing
I told her there was no one in particular
There's just I, myself, and me
I told her that I dream of you quite often
She just cut her eyes at me
She said you got a home, you're very happy
So just stop your meddling
I told her that I won't
I said things were cool, but I guess I was wrong
I still can't move on

[Chorus]

Now that could be my car
That could be my house
That could be my baby boy that you're nursing
That could be the trash that I always take out
That could be the chair that I love to chill in
That could be my food on the table at the end of the day
Hugs and the kisses, all the love we make
What the hell do you expect me to say?
What if it's really `sposed to be this way?
What if you're really `sposed to be with me?

[Chorus fade-out]

And it ends with a bang! Damn, that song reminds me a lot of "I-don't-wanna-go-back-to-my-past" life. Uhuh, beat it. I'd like to know what you feel 'bout the song. Did you happen to look back on those times? About how he/she pleases you like that, how that person made you feel right, how that person made your day? Like "I'll do anything to please you, 'coz I just wanna make you happy and stuff" .. right.. seems so stupid, rips you apart ei? This song just made my day go round. Awe yeah.. XD now I'm out!

*smurfiiin' ~ Audi mode*

Anime Arena

2007-05-28T14:25:00.001-07:00

D. Gray Man Cast of Characters

Teru Mikami of Death Note

Current anime shows that I'm watching over www.crunchyroll.com :

• Death Note

• D. Gray Man

Anime shows that I am willing to watch over and over again :

• Detective Conan

• Ghost Fighter

• Slam Dunk

• Shingetsutan Tsukihime

• Fate/Stay Night

• La Corda d'Oro

• Fushigi Yuugi

• Ichigo 100%

• Bleach

• Chobits

• Love Hina

• Gundam Wing

• Gundam Seed

• Ouran High School Host Club - Super Laugh TRIP!

• Evangelion
• Paradise Kiss
• Tenjho Tenge
• Darker than Black

~Tiny bits of information served. Enjoy watching!

What I'm Listening

2007-05-28T13:20:00.000-07:00

Sound trip mode : Break free from the chains. Feel it. Sway with it. Voice out. Make it alive.

My Listo' Breamo' : Alternative Rock

♣ Breath - Breaking Benjamin

♠ I see nothing in
your eyes,

and the more I see

the less I
like.

♣ What I've Done - Linkin Park

♣ Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's

♠ You know it's all because of you

This one's for you

♣ Signal Fire - Snow Patrol

♣ The River - Good Charlotte

♠ Baptized in the river

I wanna be delivered

(on my own)

♣ The Pursuit - Evans Blue

♠ Are you alone where you are tonight?

I'm alone when you're right here

But I'm still in you somehow

I never left at all

Now I'm stealing you too low

So my voice is all you know

♠ Sweet Sacrifice - Evanesence

♣ It's true,

we're all a little
insane.

But it's so
clear,

Now that I'm
unchained.

♠ Well Enough Alone - Chevelle

♣ Why we leave well enough alone

Never thought about the shame

So fed up what's with the scenes?

Observe and leave instead

Let's flip into another genre : Emo

♠ Magazines - Brand New

♣ I'm only broken-hearted loser you'll ever need

♠ Wake Up Call - Hawthorne Heights

♣ Say "so long," say "goodnight,"

and just hold out your hand

To catch me if I fall into the night

Say "so long," say "goodnight,"

and just hold out your hand

To catch me if I fall

♠ Rooftops - Lost Prophets

♣ When our time is up,

When our lives are done,

Will we say we've had our fun?

Will we make a mark,

This time.

Will we always say we tried.

♠ Thanks For The Memories - Fall Out Boy

♣ I'm gonna make you bend and break

Say your prayers, but let the good times roll

In case god doesn't show(let the good times roll, let the good times roll)

And i want these words to make things right

But its the wrong that makes these words come to life

Who does he think he is (if that's the worst you got you better put your fingers back to the keys)

One more night and one more time

♠ My Eyes Burn - Matchbook Romance

♣ So take take everything and leave me scrambling

Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

♠ Empty Picture Frame - Jets To Brazil

♣ that picture repays

my eyes as they glaze

a thousand lashes

from a love long gone away

Wacky tacky portion : I'm really sleepy. I need to rest. I really guess so. I'm bored. About the last song : it sounds like an "old song"... I guess it is an old song. Well, ciao for now. Be back in a little while.

The Hell With That

2007-05-28T12:52:00.000-07:00

♣ What I've done

I'll face myself

To cross out what I've become

Erase myself

And let go of what I've done

[What I've Done - Linkin Park]

What now?

At this instant I'm sure that you have guessed what I feel directly : anger. Why so? I am pissed off with what things are going on. Just right now, after chatting with "I-don't-want-to-expose-that-person," I instantly felt regret. Why did I just talk to that person? Nonsense talk. Useless, time-consuming talk. I really feel stupid. And on another point of view, why am I cramming for an answer? Is that person important to me? Hell yeah, that person is very important. That person said: "I missed you;" and it buzzed me off the ground. But I can't find anything there, those lines that person said to me were just like "false labels." I was thinking about it. Am I completely blaming that person? Somehow, as you can see and read, YES, I am. I am pissed off with your manner. Why did you have to do that at that instant? Is it really that damn important that talking to ME? I who stupidly searched for answers behind your eyes? I who wants to know that you are important to me? Can't you see that? We never talk this much anyway. I just want to tell you some things that may at least make you smile, make you happy, make you feel important. This saves nothing but resolutions. Just like that, forget me and go on. Damn.

Here I go on, mixing my emotions with confusion. I'm listening to alternative rock at the moment. I've been through with Signal Fire by Snow Patrol. Smooth music. Soothing. Relaxing. Damn, even though music helps me forget the problem BUT the problem just sings its way inside my damn brain.

♣ The perfect words
never crossed my mind,

'cause there was
nothing in there but you,

I felt every ounce of
me screaming out,

But the sound was
trapped deep in me,

All I wanted just speed
right past me,

While I was
rooted fast to the earth

[Signal Fire - Snow
Patrol]

This is my way of bringing my problems out of me. The problem is that the problem just goes on and on inside my damn brain... Can't help myself but to bring myself to use : I am currently

PLAYING SOME DAMN INSTRUMENT -

Loneliness Uncovered

2007-05-28T11:02:00.000-07:00

When people are truly lonely, they feel miserably unhappy, vacuous, and painfully hollow.

There are things that doesn't rhyme with loneliness at all. Voluntary solitude, for example, is not synonymous with loneliness. Lonely people do not voluntarily enter into that emotional state; rather, they "find themselves" feeling sometimes desperately lonely for reasons even they may not fully understand. Voluntary solitude, on the other hand, can be a healthy alternative to interacting with the "noise" of the world and a respite from the constancy of dealing with the sometimes harrowing contingencies of modern life. Solitude may be sought for deep growth experiences such as meditation, visualization, listening to music, and other forms of "doing nothing." Neither is being alone synonymous with loneliness: it shows that some lonely people have sufficient interactional networks and are, nonetheless, lonely because they are dissatisfied with those networks; conversely it is well known that some people enjoy the state of aloneness, within which they might be very productive or creative, and these people are alone without being lonely.

In addition to that, loneliness can be brought on to because of "emptiness and isolation." Another example to that is with Shakesphere's Coriolanus. Here's some of the lines that I've extracted from the book itself.

He that will give good words to thee will flatter

Beneath abhorring. What would you have, you curs,

That like nor peace nor war? the one affrights you,

The other makes you proud. He that trusts to you,

Where he should find you lions, finds you hares;

Where foxes, geese: you are no surer, no. (Lines 163-168).

Pretty ei? Well let's go back to the topic ( GEEZ, where have you been little girl? ).

Okay, so loneliness can be expressed in those terms.

Redefining loneliness... *source dictionary*

1. the state of being alone in solitary isolation(synonym) solitariness(hypernym) isolation

2. sadness resulting from being forsaken or abandoned(synonym) forlornness, desolation(hypernym) sadness, unhappiness

3. a disposition toward being alone(synonym) aloneness, lonesomeness, solitude(hypernym) disposition, temperament

On the first entry I defined loneliness in different ways and how do they differ from another state. In here, the examples are shown to enable you to differentiate what is loneliness to another material. Here ends my topic about loneliness. Unveiling it sure is fun. :3

Loneliness

2007-05-28T07:05:00.001-07:00

♣ Loneliness One-O-One ♣

♠ Seeks me, moves me♠

Part 1

At times like these, people gather around and think : " WHAT IS LONELINESS ? "

Loneliness is easily described as :

♠ It can be the lack of effective
communication skills that provide meaningful interaction with others or
otherwise people who find it difficult to feel connected to another person..

♠ A definition of loneliness from this perspective is
likely to include a central concern with feeling alone, rejected, or alienated
as a function of an inability to establish, maintain, and terminate
relationships appropriately.
or it can be..
♠ A multidimensional problem, involving not merely social skills deficits and dysfunctional attachment histories but also cognitive styles, attributional patterns, situational problems, unrealistic expectancies, and other factors.

Any acceptable definition of loneliness would have to account for this multifactorial situation in a logically meaningful way. Even though it is now possible to construct a prototype or a "general case" of a lonely person, if there is no universally agreed-upon definition of loneliness, it is imperative that within-group variance be kept constantly in mind, particularly when attempting to identify loneliness accurately within a clinical setting. The literature suggests that, while general patterns may exist in lonely people, such people are far from identical; differential levels and varying types of loneliness must be considered when dealing with lonely people.

♣ Fundamentally, loneliness can be conceptualized as an aversive
affective condition, accompanied by any number of possible problematic
cognitions, life circumstances, problem-solving strategies, interactive
patterns, and various other factors, depending on the individual. The subjective
experience of loneliness, however, is at the heart of the matter, and is
sometimes so intense that lonely people can think about little else. In
addition, lonely people possess a deep sense of emptiness that they frequently
describe quite accurately as loneliness.

At present, while a number of definitions for loneliness do exist, they are not necessarily consistent with one another.

One Moment Of Silence

2007-05-28T06:29:00.000-07:00

♣ All alone in one moment ♣

People say that nightmares only exist in fantasy: DREAM LAND. I say they're wrong. Think about what you will have today, something bad or awful... and the next thing that hops right through your mind will be the next thing that will happen to you without even thinking twice if it is real or not. What do you call that? Fantasy brought to life? Cool. In fact, dreams often become real. Like this nightmare of mine, " one day, a friend drifts over in some pool and then later on, that person is gone.. " Whoever that person is, I don't want to think about you again. You just give me awful ideas on " how to end misery that fast and making it real " : WHICH IS PLAINLY STUPID.. for other people, it can be called security of oneself.

Another PHASE ♣

Peace is intimidating when it comes to silent death. It makes you grow cold, pale and doubtful about the world. That " cold, pale and doubtful world " is what I have now. I don't think that it's a big deal though. I've ended up in misery and in misery I will fall apart. In it I will make a world full of sorrow that I can't control my emotions further but express only the contentment that I am having because of it. I label it " selfishness and greed " : those words make me human. Maybe, this part of me now is my alter ego. The " happy me " always thinks about the future, people that never grow old, people that will save, love, share and intimidate people to become like them. They play by the rules, they never lie or somehow do evil against their brothers and sisters. Notice that the world wants this kind of idea to come to life which is really impossible for me to come up with. Uhuh, small things come to bigger things. Dreams coming to reality. Abnormality to being normal. Things like these stink. It never came to " my world of nightmares." I was thinking a minute ago, am I blind to see the beautiful world around me or was I not? If being just like this is satisfactory to my taste, why not make it? Be myself. Be real. I just don't get people who act plastic. If you love that world, make it yours and not just make it a fantasy. Dreams are dreams only if you think it can be like that. Reality somehow can't be compared to fantasy. Reaching your dreams can be another term of responsibility. It can make a person responsive to the moment he makes it worth. Another question brought me to another phase, " how can a person be happy without fulfilling his own desire? A dream he made most of his time work to make it bloom? " Truth knocks on the other side of the door while false deeds keys itself into your life. It is for you to choose. It is either you welcome one of them or to welcome both.

♣ Dreams and desires are different. ♣
♠ Reality and Fantasy can
be mixed. ♠
♣ Life and Death are twins in
their own special ways ♣

Fish for Thought - As Music Spins My World

2007-05-28T05:44:00.000-07:00

♠When everything seems so real yet it was created only by my fantasy...♠

When music takes it place in my heart ...

Somewhere deep down there my emotions start to be abrupt ...

Everything seems to be in the right place yet in the wrong time...

Could it be the music that stirs my soul and mind?

Or could it be another motion at hand... another feature for another purpose.. another hand for another person... another word for another deed taken in action...

Or was it just plain reality?

♠Last night was the night that started it all, I was playing again... and everything sat motionless in the cold atmosphere♠

Hello VIOLIN! Yes, you! You scared me the next day when I finally realized that I was playing YOU again. I never believed that I could play you once more for one last time. Wait, could it really be my last time to play that instrument? Was I just a little bit intense into making it alive again? The tone, the music, and the atmosphere that stir naught in silence... Whoah! It makes me want to scream! Still, I played that thing and it made me happy. The notes were blank at first, slowly, it made a tune so difficult to imagine yet so easy to understand. The result?

♠ Loneliness filled the air and nothing can break the motionless figure of the atmosphere♠

Am I dreaming? Fantasizing? Or was I brought by stupidity alone? Geez! But really, it was dull for me making it alive, making it spark in thin air. I cried, I cried so hard but I never realized that it was I whose making the music out of it. I just happened to skip my reading session and made some notes back for the assumption of music. I just want to keep it close to me for the least time that I was to be able to have it. Knowing less these days, I studied music again. It was a jumping start again. I feel alive. I am born anew to the fantasies I just wrote. The music makes my blood flow again to my veins. Everything came to life. Everything made a spark. Everything made a difference.